The heaviness of it all

It has been awhile since I've managed a post with substance. Day-to-day activity has been allowed to consume me physically, yet I find myself drifting off mentally.

Thoughts seep in more frequently that are attached to 'nesting'. I believe it is a result of my need to have complete balance and calm in my life and the utter lack of it right now.






We have been caught up in the rush of business buying the new house. If you have not had the opportunity to deal with a mortgage company since our country entered the mortgage crisis, do not feel like you are missing anything. Gone are the days of the easy transaction - call someone, ask for a mortgage, show up and sign. This recent experience has left me feeling somewhat violated and frustrated that the actions of some have affected us all.


The change in housing means it is time to coordinate the move details. The trip here left us (and our furniture) battered. In the moving company's defense, they did send a nice, big check to compensate us for our loss. Half of our household has been in their storage for 5 months and it makes me wonder the condition at arrival. So, there is the physical delivery of the storage load, then the coordination the pack and move of our current location - enough said.





I've been so very focused on our individual needs and events that I had forgotten there are much bigger things going on around us. Our friends back in Michigan are caught up in a floundering economic situation. Everything there is tied to the auto industry and we know where the auto industry has been for quite awhile. My father has given many years to GM and is but 2 years from retirement. What will his future look like?





The President touched on these issues along with our current foreign involvement and the swine flu in his address last night. Disagree with me, but not since Clinton have I heard a more engaging speaker in the Presidency (light enough comment for the Southeast?). Did he tell me anything I didn't know? Not really, but his words reassured me that all of this stuff is on the radar. It did not seem like all smoke and mirrors or hopeless, simply put - We have all of these problems and we are handling them as best we can. Seems like my life right now.


The combination of all these events leave me with the need to nest. To cozy into our new oasis and make it my own. To slow down and enjoy what we have right now. To appreciate the small wonders that occur every day but become lost in the heaviness of it all.




Things can look entirely different in just a week.